I always knew that someday, I would want to love again. But every time I get closer to that moment, there’s a part of me that just freezes. It’s like I’m standing at the edge, wanting to leap, but the fear of falling makes me hesitate. I guess it’s because life hasn’t always been a straight line for me. I’m not the lucky one when it comes to love—it’s been messy, complicated, and sometimes even heartbreaking. But despite all that, I still find myself dreaming of what it would be like to truly love again. Not the kind of love that’s perfect, but the kind that’s real and full of depth. A love that takes time to build, one that understands and accepts the rough patches along the way.
I know there are parts of me that are still learning to heal. There are scars, pieces of my past that I’m still figuring out how to carry with grace. And I know you have your own, too. But here’s the thing: I want to love you through all of it. Not because we are perfect, but because we’re real. I don’t expect us to be flawless. I just hope we can bring our full selves into this relationship—our joys, our pain, our past, and everything in between. I hope we can respect each other’s presence, space and time, while also showing up for each other when it matters most. I want us to feel safe, loved, and understood, even in the hard moments.
I want to be the kind of partner who holds space for your dreams, your mistakes, and your triumphs. I want us to grow together, accepting each other’s imperfections without trying to fix or change them. And in return, I hope you’ll love me with all my pieces—broken and whole—and accept that I, too, am still learning how to love fully. At the end of the day, I just want a love that feels like home. One that doesn’t shy away from the tough stuff, but instead faces it with kindness, understanding, and patience. I’m ready for it—ready to love you with all my heart, with all the good, the bad, and everything in between.
So this year, I want to remind myself that love may not be a fairytale, but I am still rooting for our Happily Ever After in this lifetime. Ready to love each other—imperfectly, but with every bit of my heart.