There are always things people say after a break up. Yet, for me there
were so many questions and one of them that kept turning at the back of my mind
was “why
did he just decide to walk away”.
No matter how happy I have move on with my life and how close I am to
each potential relationship, I can’t
seem to get the past out of my head on most days. It ended so abruptly with no
reasons or explanations.
That was it. No more
communication. I have heard nothing from him since last September last year. No
checking to see if I’m okay, no late night awkward texts, not even a “How are
you doing?” Part of me needs some closure, something to give my mind the
rest it needs of what happened. The other part wonders what I did wrong.
The problem with modern relationships is that we blame ourselves
constantly, assuming we weren’t enough, not that they couldn’t handle our
turbulent and overpowering beauty. I have questions, and I assume those reading
will have them too, everyone has questions to ask about that day you heart was
broken. Why did everything suddenly change? What did I do? The list is endless
in broken thoughts and hurt well wishes.
Everyone says “Past
relationships doesn’t matter, only the last does”, but until the day comes
where I get an answer, the stubbornness of my heart will never close the
chapter of the story. I need a closure, a conclusion to the story.