“When I first met you, I saw loneliness in
your eyes. Not the single kind of loneliness, but the loneliness of no one
understands you”. I brush the conversation off by shrudding my
shoulder and replied him “I don’t know, not really”.
But
as the days passed, he grew fonder of me. I had never given someone so many
chances before and all I thought was just hanging out with a new friend. I wasn’t
looking for someone to love me or someone to be with at the time, but I knew I
was on the wrong directions when he started sending me flowers. I knew he has fallen
deeper and if I walk away now, I would have broken a heart like how mine was
broken.
I
panicked because I thought I was going to ruin a kind heart, but the more I
kept denying it, the closer he walks towards me. I felt every time we talk or
hang out, I want to distance him more and each cell of mine just freaks out
more. I realized that no matter how hard I tried to fight my feelings, the
stronger they would become. But there was just no turning back, and there was
just no running away from you, you had this hold on me that won’t let go.
I
am not sure what’s going to happen down the road for me, because 1 month into
accepting this relationship and I’m still freaking out each day. I’m not hoping
for any change in you but I’m hoping there’s a change in me.
