I need a chance, a chance to press the
reset button of my life, in starting over everything in my life, to let go of
who I were in the past. I needed a chance to let go of what was holding me back
and the things that were weighing me down. I want to be able to choose without
anyone telling me and/or having ten thousand things weighing down on me. I want to be given a new chance to live my
life differently.
I want to be given a new lens to see life
in colours instead of having the clouds above my head all the time. I want to
be able to fix myself and get myself one step closer to who I always wanted to
be. I want to find the blessings in the ending, the good in the goodbyes and
what lies on the other side of fear, the magic that lies beyond this life and
the wonderful things life has offer but I am just too depress to look up.
I want to take a different road even
though it scares me, but I believe then if I could finally learn to let go of
something or someone that was holding me back, I could finally learn to fly
and/or my words could finally find the way out from my mouth. I want to have
the ability to start over, to end things and start again.
And this time, when it all begins again,
I don’t want to have any rules or manual to keep up with. I want to write this
chapter myself without anyone else holding the pen or dictating me.