๐๐ท ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐น๐ฎ๐ป๐ผ๐ธ๐ท ๐ ๐ถ๐ฎ๐ฎ๐ฝ, ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ท๐ญ ๐ถ๐๐ผ๐ฎ๐ต๐ฏ ๐ต๐ธ๐ท๐ฐ๐ฒ๐ท๐ฐ ๐ฏ๐ธ๐ป ๐ฝ๐ฑ๐ฎ ๐น๐ช๐ผ๐ฝ ๐ช๐ท๐ญ ๐ถ๐ฒ๐ผ๐ผ๐ฒ๐ท๐ฐ ๐ช ๐น๐ฎ๐ป๐ผ๐ธ๐ท ๐ฝ๐ฑ๐ช๐ฝ ๐ธ๐ท๐ต๐ ๐ฎ๐๐ฒ๐ผ๐ฝ๐ผ ๐ฒ๐ท ๐ถ๐ ๐ถ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ธ๐ป๐.
Itโs just wishing and hoping to feel
love once again, but at the back of my mind Iโm thinking about the one that
left me in darkness and Iโm questioning myself will I end up heartbroken all
over again when I stand at the crossroad. Broken
memories becomes a reality when I have thoughts I canโt even control. I
questioned myself over and over again that all I ever did was trigger that thought of wanting to love but all
the memories came back at once. All I
ever want for myself is a chance to love right.
I want to give someone my time and
attention; and I want to learn how to share my thoughts; my happiness and (hopefully)
my darkness. I want to learn how to open up my wounds to someone and not be
afraid that they would hurt it deeper. I want to share my life with someone
that only tried to be better and that they deserved the best out of me but Iโm
still trying to get there. Iโm still
trying to pick up the pieces.
But I donโt know why itโs the
constant pain that come and go each time I tries to open up my heart. Itโs
those memories that Iโve kept at the back of my mind that reminds me of the
darkness I sat in for years. Itโs the effort I have to take to walk out to the
light again and the energy I had to gather to get out of bed. Yet, I donโt know
why the past 3 days, those memories came flashing back to me leaving my heart
in pain that I donโt know if I should be standing at the crossroad. And I donโt want to hurt another soul.
