I have no excuse, no reason, no
explanation, no spoken word that can possibly explain how I could let you go. I
saw you walk out of the story and I made no intention to stop you from walking
out. I put it on the blame that my heart could not feel and no matter how many
times I convince myself to open my heart to you; my world closes down on me.
I check on you every now and then
since you dropped the conversation, I always wanted to know if you’ve moved on
with your life. I always wanted you to
move on faster not because you would stop bugging me but you can achieve your
life goal sooner. I always wanted you to
find someone easier to love and someone who likes the surprises you give every
now and then. I pushed you out of my mind for so many moments; so many
thoughts in my mind which I didn’t allow through for the reminder of what a
freak I had been, for how badly I had treated you, and for how terribly I had
ripped you apart.
