It has always been this way, we say
goodbye shortly after we say hello. But what they didn’t know is that those
guiltiness has eaten up us that we are unsure ourselves if we should talk to
anyone again. We thought we could find someone better, someone more exciting
but the guiltiness of dropping someone in the middle of the story is just going
to haunt us for the rest of our lives.
We are unsure ourselves too, we are unsure why we don’t say goodbye, we don’t
explain, we don’t try to make sure the other person is okay. We just take off.
We book the plane ticket, we leave the country and we make decisions even after
knowing that someone has been waiting for us, someone wanting to be a part of
our lives, someone who wants to plan their future around us.
Yet, at that very moment, leaving
was the only decision we had in mind, we just want to leave and never look
back. We convince ourselves that leaving
is stronger and it makes us in control, so we keep leaving one after
another. That’s why no one would understands why at the end of the day we would
end up alone because we can’t tell them the truth that it was us that keeps
dropping someone in the middle of a relationship.