The truth is, I never truly open up
myself to someone into my life and let them walk into my life. I’m afraid of
making the sacrifices only to be left heartbroken, I am afraid of taking the
leap. Because when I say that timing is
wrong, I’m really saying that I’m not willing to take the risk and I presume
that you are not good enough for me to leave my comfort zone. I am not ready to
take the leap for love.
I blame the world that it’s been
against my love story, that the universe is unfairly keeping me apart from the
love life. But we know the truth that I
chose to turn down dates from Valentine’s to New Year’s Eve, I chose to remain
apart. I made the conscious decision not to date. But deep down inside of
me, I was hoping that someone would break down the walls and my insecurities, I
was hoping that someone could hug me tight when I tried to push them away, and
whisper by my side to stop giving myself the timing excuse.