I
have had my heart shattered into pieces before I get to label the friendship,
but I have glued and stitched them back together over the years; I have also
hid them very well that you can barely see the marks and cracks from the
previous tragedies. So when we finally decide to take the step forward, I won’t
need you to complete me because I will never be complete.
Please
be patient enough to stay with me, my previous person all lose patient after
all the battles and tragedies I’ve to go through every now and then with
myself. Most of them only have one foot inside trying to check out on the
situation leaving footprints behind my heart. I carry a lot of baggage, I
should have emphasized from the very beginning that I am not to be handled by
the faint-hearted. Please stay with me
at times where I try to push everyone away.
I
hope you can understand that I was force to be an independent woman, after
years of career-fighting and being single, I have somewhat mastered the art of
being alone. And I think you will be fine with that since you have been alone
all these years too. You will find that I may not ask for your help most of the
time, don’t assume that you’re not needed, don’t assume that I can deal with
this easily on my own. Each time you asked “How’s my day?”, I have to muster
all my courage to open my heart to let someone into my day.
Even
though I would not ask you to be there, I
secretly hope you would be there at the end of the day. I secretly wish
that I could one day be someone’s first priority, I need to know what it is
like to hear the words, “I will always
choose you.” Please hold me tight so I know what is is like when someone
finds it hard to let go of me.