Whenever someone tries to make way
into my heart, they end up being wounded by pieces of me. They would have to
learn to get over something that would not have any happily ever after, they
would have to experience what it means to
lose something while grabbing on to it. I don’t want anyone to see me walk
away and never look back because my heart has been numb since.
I wish I could turn my emotions back
on like a light switch and enjoy the little moments with people, but that is
impossible for me. I thought I have heal, but the truth is I only kept running
away from the truth. The stubborn heart
doesn’t forget even the brain already does. I know I can come across as
heartless at times, but I guess that was how I rebuild myself to be.
I used to wear my heart on my
sleeve, but now I’m uncomfortable expressing my emotions. I pretend to be cold,
I keep my expectations low so I never end up disappointed again. It doesn’t
make sense anymore but the truth is not
feeling anything is as suffocating as feeling too much!