I felt the presence of you so real, wrapping me in your warmth until all of my fears fade away. I felt the presence of your touch to tame the emptiness in my heart, to ignite warmth and comfort, even when I tries to push you away. I felt the presence of your voice whispering in my ear, to reassure my thoughts that the pain is temporary and it would eventually all go away.
But as I woke up before the break of dawn, all I can see is a painful mirage that reminds me of the ache I still had on my arm from the vaccine I had earlier that day. I calm my soul that maybe I long for someone to hold me when I felt all the pain inserted into my arm with no one to hold on to. That I was reminded once again that I’ve to learn to stand with my fear alone, I have to bear with my pain alone, I have to stay with my darkness alone.
That I would never find another to heal the cracks in my heart as I search for wholeness again.