You
are the first person that I felt a strong heartbeat after being numb for a long
time. To say that you made a tsunami over my life is an understatement. To
say I felt earthquake over my heart is an understatement. When I met you, I
was already a different person yet still drained from my past. You came along, and
it was just so simple. I fell fast – a little too fast for my comfort, but
I felt safe around you. Being with you is like finally being able to breathe
again. My walls were destroyed by the earthquake you cause, and it just scares
me because the more time I spent with you, the less I wanted to be apart from
you.
I
love how I feel when I’m with you. It’s like your manly charisma tends to have
the ability to lift the weight off my shoulder. At the same time, I enjoy
laughing over your insecurities, it just softens my heart knowing that we all carry
our own baggage, we just need to find someone who loves us enough to unpack it.
I enjoy pulling your legs, crapping the nonsense together because in those
moments, I know there is no place I would rather be.
You
remind me that I am not darkness. That no matter how grim things were, I won’t
have to go through it alone. I never knew how a little reassurance from you
could mean so much to my heart. I thought I was strong but with you I learn
what it is like to be vulnerable. And everyday I just hope that you feel the
same way about me for a long time. I tell people that I ain’t going anywhere,
yet with you I want to see the world with you, I want to make memories and shared
the joy and laughter; but also, whenever you are feeling down.
I don’t think I truly knew much about those things at all, but you are the only one I want to fall into, because my heart has unknowingly chose you. I’m sorry if at times I didn’t raise any courage to say the things I felt in my heart, but know that each time we say goodbye, it took every ounce of me not to kiss and hug you; when I see your face it took every ounce of me not to fall in love. And when you shared your soul – it took every ounce of me.