I
had convinced myself that I could live and survive in this world without a
significant other, those words can be found all over my writings. I told myself
I was capable of making myself happy. I especially thought that I have been
numb from feelings and that is how I am destined to be until the end of time. I
have always distant myself from love, from letting someone close to me, to let
someone into my life. Then you came in like a tsunami.
Ever
since you invaded my mind, every cell of mine wants you. The sound of your
voice encourages me to show my vulnerability, and to let you in. And even
though it has been almost half a year now, I’m still clueless on how we end up
here. I’m still questioning on your ability to light a fire in my cold,
dysfunctional heart. I wonder if you were the key to my padlock heart, or
you are just talented at handling someone with a heavy baggage. Either way, I
just want you to keep holding me.
I
don’t only crave for you when I have a long day, I crave for you every single
day. I want to roll into your arms every night and I want your little kiss
sneaking up on me before I can open my eyes every morning. I still live with
anxiety, but I’ve seen the demons fading away into the dark after you pull me
close into your chest. And the more you held on to me, the more I fall deeper
into you. I can’t predict what’s going to happen in the near future, but I’m
certain that I’m grateful that you walked into my life.