Relationships
are dope! There’s nothing like it. Every so often, you meet someone, and it
seems like the pieces of the puzzle just magically fit together. Your new man suddenly
awakes your senses all over again, and every inch of your body just want to
hold him. You spend the beginning in a euphoric state of love, bliss, and
wonderful dates. Everything is perfect. Then the haze starts to clear a bit,
and your relationship isn’t as new anymore.
He’s
still the person you want to see, but it’s really annoying how his little dirty
habits start to kick on, not to mention snores in your ear. It’s easier to
fall in love, but not as easy to make a relationship last and get stronger.
Real love takes work, even when we are compatible in most ways. Maybe just like
work and life, relationships need a break too. Despite the time I fell for you,
the little disappointments, the care I hope for, the respect I deserve seem to
pile up over time.
I
needed that break so that I do not become another version of myself that only
focuses on the bad. I tried to focus on your good, yet I just want to blurt
those words out each time I see him just finding his presence in a group chat
or a social media comment while I sat next to him or across him. I want to
convince myself that it’s a better habit than many. I want to blurt those words
out each time he tells me he’s going fishing, not because I disapprove of it,
but because he prioritizes those time over our dates.
And
I think if I don’t take a break to think if we’re suitable, I’ll keep focusing
on the bad!