You’re
not a noob, you’re just guarded. You have built walls, walls so high that you
don’t even notice. You’ve used those walls as protection, as comfort and over
the years those protection layers have become so thick to the point where you
don’t even know what it would be like without them. You’ve been completely
self-sufficient, fearless to live this life, completely fine eating alone in
public. You’ve been your own superhero; little did you know that it has also become
your own worst enemy.
I
know you guard your own heart because it’s easier that way. It has become your
guidance and protection from being hurt and feeling pain. But did you know that
having the walls so high guarding the heart also lock you out from the chances
of love. I’ve been there, shutting myself off to the idea of love
because is safer this way, I felt like I am protecting myself. I knew I was
my own problem; I knew I’m standing in my own way, but the problem is my walls
were so high up I didn’t know how to let anyone in.
That’s
why I know this feeling, just because you were guarded doesn’t mean you didn’t
want love. It simply means that you need someone to come in and stay. You need
someone who can help you break down the walls you’ve built, someone to
remind you that love isn’t scary after all and that falling in love is the
best thing we could experience as human.
I
know part of you wishes you could just love out of convenience, to put yourself
out there without any commitment. But you can’t be closed off and love,
it just doesn’t work that way. I know it’s an awful battle inside your head,
but that’s the beautiful part about healing. Healing is not relying in someone
coming into your life to fix you because you know you don’t need fixing; you just
need to work on letting your heart breathe. You need to put your heart on the
line because it’s the only way you’ll ever get closer to finding love.
So, this is me speaking from experience, building walls take you nowhere but love takes you on new adventure and new places. This is my promise for new beginnings and to being open to love.