So today, I’ll start to text you Happy
Birthday a million times, no matter how close I get to hitting the send button.
My fingers will tremble each time I hit
the home button from forcing myself not to hit the send button. You see, to
actually reach out to you would throw away any progress I’ve made the past few
years. I’ve tried to move on, but those feeling come back all at once on this
day every year.
Don’t worry, I don’t think I’ll be able to
open the door to you again, I don’t think
I will be opening the door to anyone ever again. I will have to remind
myself that it took every bit of strength I had to close the door the very
first time, there is no way I’ll survive that a second time. I am sure I will
spend the night wondering how happy you will be on this day and you’ll probably
continue to appear in my dreams like you’ve did the last 6 years.
Regardless of what I actually do today, it
doesn’t change the fact that today needs to be just another day but it really
isn’t. So every year, I will wish you a Happy Birthday from a distance and hoping the message never get across to you.
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